Everyone keeps saying, "He's not good enough for you" "You're better than him" "Your better off without him." But the more I think about it maybe its the other way around. Maybe if I had just considered everything a little bit more. If I had tried harder, but I think I gave up towards the end. I decided that it wasn't going to work so I stopped trying. I took the easy way out. Only it wasn't easy because it hurt, and I feel like I'm dying without him.
Maybe I wasnt good enough for him, maybe it hurts because I failed in our relationship. Yeah, it wasn't one sided problems, and he started as many problems as I did.
I'm sad my heart is breaking he found someone else. Everyone says it was his fault. But I think it was mine. And I want him, but he wants lidsey. I just don't know what to do any more. It hurts so much and I dont know how to stop it. I don't want to do anything. I don't draw, I hardly read. I don't go out side. I lay down I cry I watch tv, and I sleep. But not at night, because at night I just think about everything I lost. I only sleep when exhaustion makes me sleep. Ok those were my feelings for taday. And we're all done now.